The Wrong Questions

I've been thinking about this for all of high school. I've never had that breaking moment where I fully get it. But I think the trick is to not think about it. Thinking, using logic, is not always going to give it to me. I just need to keep going and keep learning. One of these days I'm going to have a revelation. I cant make myself have one. I know that I have something. I know that I have potential. But I know there's a leap I haven't found yet. If I had found it, I would have leaped ages ago. It's just that I haven't found it yet. So I have to stop stressing about it because I don't get it. Every little tidbit that influences me along the way will contribute to the overall. It's just that it's all I really want to do. So I kind of have to do it. But I'm not there yet. I can. I have to be able to find it. Why else would my life lead me up to this?