All I want to do is watch Into the Wild and reach out and grab what I want and LIVE LIFE. It's so unfortunate that all I have is my SLAP paper, physics Test, and Religion project staring at me and dragging me away from setting foot into the world. Basically. That is how I feel. I hate this. I have such an intense desire to run away from everything. I want to search and search to find the meaning of life until I find it. There's got to me more to life. Stacie Orrico said it, and I say it. Ever since my teenage years started I guess, I've slowly been losing certain elements that have kept me satisfied. Maybe it's growing up and realizing everything. I just have to warn myself never to watch anything from Into the Wild ever until I have all of my schoolwork done. Because I honestly don't have a single microscopic desire to do it.
I want to pack some stuff up and sell everything else. I want to simplify. I want to go on my own quest to find the meaning. Because it is so hard to find spiritual meaning in this society. I want to take a car and drive to Canada and do some hard core living for a while. I kind of want to just be all alone even though I know happiness is only real when shared. But I want to find that out for myself. I want to drive all across America and do some hard core living out west as well for a while. I am so. unsettled. I am searching.
That movie. When I was watching this my soul was clawing at my heart or something deep like that.
I think humor keeps me grounded. If that makes any sense.
Sometimes to find our meaning we have to get through times that feel meaningless but really are teaching us what meaning is. If nothing else, look for hope in your future... Don't look to your past. Because we can't go back. Learn from it, live with it. It will always be with you. But don't let who you are now stop you from hoping. You are a truly beautiful person becca. God has crazy plans for you and part of that is his timing... Not our Own. Sorry if this is preachy... But I think it's time that us bloggers share hope. Or at least try. Ha.
I know I'm crazy nostalgic. I do tend to live in the past or future basically all the time. I've tried to tell myself to live in the present but I dont know. I can't really do it. I really loved what you had to say. I know once I find the meaning or just understand it will mean all the more because I've been through this "meaningless" time.
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Sometimes to find our meaning we have to get through times that feel meaningless but really are teaching us what meaning is. If nothing else, look for hope in your future... Don't look to your past. Because we can't go back. Learn from it, live with it. It will always be with you. But don't let who you are now stop you from hoping. You are a truly beautiful person becca. God has crazy plans for you and part of that is his timing... Not our Own. Sorry if this is preachy... But I think it's time that us bloggers share hope. Or at least try. Ha.
I know I'm crazy nostalgic. I do tend to live in the past or future basically all the time. I've tried to tell myself to live in the present but I dont know. I can't really do it. I really loved what you had to say. I know once I find the meaning or just understand it will mean all the more because I've been through this "meaningless" time.
i'm sure you will :)
my soul aches when i watch that movie.
i understand EXACTLY what you are saying. i feel this way so often.
i want to feel so independent that i know i need to be dependent on someone. does that make sense? it made sense in my head.
YES. I understand that completely. I feel like right now I'd be dependent for the wrong reasons. That makes perfect sense.
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